Sometimes I really find it beyond difficult to understand the audacity of some people.
It blows me away at the things people think up to say to another individual.
For instance...
Today I was cashiering on aisle 21. . .so exciting right? . . .um, I think not. . .
none-the-less, this woman in her early to mid fifties came through my line. I was just starting to ring up the woman before her (who just happens to be her daughter) when she looks at me and says,
"When is your baby due?"
I thought she may have been talking to someone else. . .or maybe I heard her wrong. . . (which was a definite possibility. . .I think I'm going deaf.)
But no. She repeated the same question that I thought I must have heard wrong the first time.
I kind of tilted my head to one side... and just looked at her for a moment... like...
'Did you honestly just ask me that'? rather than reacting in such a manner I simply dropped my head in embarrassment responding,
"Ma'am I'm not pregnant." and finished up with the woman before her and began scanning her items. She just looked at me and went on by saying curtly,
"Oh, well I just thought because... well... you look like it"
Not only did she wrongfully voice that she thought I was pregnant, but she poured salt directly into the fresh, open, gaping wound by justifying it because I "look it". She wasn't speaking in a hushed tone either... everyone in the line before and after her heard this whole thing take place.
Lemme just shove the knife a little further in and twist and torque it a little bit for you. . .make sure it's nice and deep...
The biggest sting didn't even come with the insult and insinuation that I'm fat...(which given isn't big news... I'm not the tiny barbie doll that you see walking around) and well..."look it" but the fact that she assumed I was pregnant when I can't even get pregnant...it's not possible for me to get pregnant.
At that moment when she insulted me the second time a half a billion nasty things came into my mind to say to her... but I decided she wasn't worth it. I finished checking her out and didn't speak another word till she was gone. I was extremely grateful that no one following her said anything about what she said. I think I would have burst into tears right then and there.
However I saved my tears for my break when I called my AMAZING Mother... who gave consolation, and tried her best to fix my broken-ness at that moment with words of encouragement. My Mother has always been the one to tell me that I'm beautiful even when I feel like the ugliest person on the planet. . . -sometimes I think it's that code that Mom's can't say their own children are ugly. . .but either way it made me feel better to know that my Mom still thinks I'm beautiful regardless of my weight.
I really have such a hard time comprehending what people think is okay to say. Do people not think at all before they open their mouths? Does no one in the world have a sense of propriety anymore or is all the decency gone from here?
I often hear stories similar...or worse than my experience. People make the most inconsiderate and ignorant comments now-a-days.
