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Someone very wise once told me,

"Live the gospel simply, and simply live the gospel."

Whenever I get in a rut in life and stop doing all the things I know I should...I'm not as happy...and life becomes more complicated....

HOWEVER...it seems that when I begin to get back ON track...even more goes wrong and I find myself even more miserable because of the things that go wrong.

So how might one overcome this obstacle?  hmmm....


GIVE THANKS

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I'm thankful for the suprise check that I recieved in the mail today that will pay an incredible amount of bills... that will also help with the stress of money. I was completely blown away by this check, it actually brought tears to my eyes...it was a huge answer to my prayers as of late.


I'm so beyond greatful for the amazing man laying next to me.  My husband. My best friend. My one and only love. He is so good to me. Always making me smile even when I want to cry my eyes out. The person who is supportive of EVERYTHING I do. I'm so glad to have Scott in my life... To have him loving me....the best way anyone could ever love me. 

I'm greatful for the home I have. For the car I drive. For the two sweet birds scott just bought me. The bed I get to sleep in. The air i breathe each day. For the beautiful sun that shines... and for the stars that twinkle in the night. I'm thankful for the people that surround me and touch my life each day. My beautiful Mother. My three big brothers, and my three sisters... For Nick. I'm glad for smiles, and laughter.  For my amazing nieces and adorable nephews...my sunlight in the darkest day. I'm thankful for flowers and for the majestic mountains. The tender love of my husband.  For the  safety I enjoy each day. For the country of freedom I live in. 

i'm thankful for so much, my heart is bursting with gratitude today for every little blessing in my life. . .


Everything that happens, Happens for a reason.

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Everything that happens, Happens for a reason.......... is that right?
So often I hear this quote...especially as of late.

especially when things have seemed to have gone wrong, and I'm try to make sense of  whatever it is that has happened in my life at the time. At such times, it is usually comforting to tell oneself that there may be some higher purpose in all that is happening, and that, in the end, everything will turn out well - However...as of late this saying that should give some sense of relief...gives little comfort if any at all.

Yes...things happen for a reason...most of the time. However I'm not a real strong believer in "fate"...yes reason can play a part. Usually whatever is happening is because of an action of oneself or that of another person involved in the thing that's going on... 

It is not fate that a child is abused by a relative and then turns into an abuser. 
It is not fate that a woman is raped and then hate's men for the rest of her life... fate plays no part in this. It happened because someone used their free agency to cause that harm, someone took action. 

Things happen because of choices that one makes... However unfortunately this doesn't explain everything that happens in ones life...it's much more complex than that I think. 
For example, a medical problem...why do they happen? Why is it that some can't bear children? Is there truly a reason for it?...Are we not on this earth to "multiply and replenish". To procreate? Isn't that part of the "plan"? So if God had reason in refusing a woman to bear her own  child what is the purpose of his plan?... Is there really reason in it? Or does it just happen because it happens?

dark memories

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The deep black darkness envelopes as the sting of the past creeps back into my memory...
I take a breath and close my eyes trying to escape the blackness...
Just being drawn further back,
Vivid images...just like watching it on a t.v.  over and over. 
As though someone keeps pushing rewind...
Becoming more and more real as the seconds tick on.

Watching it unfold all over again...
Wondering how I let it happen.
Sick to my stomach that I was so weak.
Trying to understand such madness...

Then a warm hand reaches out and touches my hand...
Stops the pain for a moment and takes me away from the past,
The hand pulls me back to the realization that it is over,
That someone is beside me, loving me. -the right way.

How's married life?

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I have been asked how married life is about a half a GAZILLION times since Feb 20th.

Married life is....
                         AMAZING,
               It's magical...most of the time,
     Full of Laughs
                             ....Along with a few tears.
It's kisses and hugs...
                      and waking up each day in the arms of the person I love.
 It's Incredible
            So fun, and full of adventures.

                           It's also hard, 
         .... and sometimes EXTREMELY frustrating...
But in the grand scheme of things...so worth the frustration

I couldn't be happier. I couldn't love deeper. I couldn't want anything more.

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