IKARUMBA.... nothing. again.

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On the surface there is just this blank nothingness. . . although at the same time, I have so much on my mind.....
            ...and yet I have no way of conveying everything that is rolling around up there. There are so many emotions and thoughts...but no way of releasing them.

I am void of any sensible thought. Just a bunch of muddled and tangled up feelings.

I thought I would be able to sit and release all that is in my heart tonight on my blog... but nothing is coming to me. I've been sitting here staring at this ridiculous moniter for an hour now, (for the second night in a row) with nothing to say but that I can't say anything.

FRUSTRATING!



Happy Mothers Day Mom

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My Mother is the most absolutely amazing woman I know. 
Over the last few years she has been through so much, and she's truly taught me how to overcome weakness' and how to grow from hard times.
So many times she helped me realize who I was when I would forget... When I'd start to fall away she'd grab on and pull me back to where I belonged... She never gave up on me...when I'm sure I gave her many reasons to give up. She has always loved me...and has never made me doubt that love.

In February she gave me the most gorgeous wedding. She basically did everything. She planned it from the music to the food to the decor... and it was unbelievable. I can't ever thank her enough for this HUGE sacrifice she made for me.


She's so beautiful, inside and out... in every aspect...
My mom is one of my very best friends in the whole world. The one person I can go and cry to about anything and everything and I know she'll make me feel better, or help me better understand whatever predicament I'm in at the time. I couldn't ask for a better friend. She's always been there to kiss my "owies" and wipe away tears from my cheeks. She's never made me feel inadequate or that she didn't love me.

One of my very most favorite things about her is her unfailing faith in the Lord Jesus Christ. From the time that I was a small child there was never a time that I remember her not reading her scriptures at night, or saying her personal prayers. Mom has always had such a wonderful knowledge of the Savior...a knowledge that I've been so envious of. Never have I wondered if my Mother believed the things she so passionately taught her children about the gospel because she lives those principals everyday.


Thank you Mom. For everything you've done for me. I wouldn't trade you for anyone in the world to be my Mommy. I love you so much! 

Stumbling Blocks or Stepping stones?

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Sometimes in life there are what some may call "Stumbling blocks"...

At times I find myself contemplating all the past so called stumbling blocks that I have over come...and I've come to realize that they weren't stumbling blocks at all...perhaps they seemed that way at the time, however really what they were, were stepping stones leading me where I needed to be.

Still the knowledge of this fact doesn't always make it easy when things come up. If I could just keep in mind that the trials that are happening, or that will come into my life are going to help me to grow, they will help me reach the potential that I am meant for.

Sometimes I just wish that life didn't place so many stepping stones in my path all at once expecting me to take them all on at the same time...

The realization that they ARE in fact stepping stones and not stumbling blocks didn't just come to me. . . A few years ago as a Junior in high school an amazing seminary teacher, Brother Laing, taught me this principle. He gave me a quote from President Gorden B. Hinckley that basically said that sometimes life is hard, but there is no point sitting around waiting for things to get better. We have to get up and do something to change our situation...change our attitude. 

Today I was feeling particularly frustrated with life and was having a rather pathetic pity party for myself and remembered what Brother Laing taught me... I couldn't be more grateful for all the incredible conversations I have had with this spiritual giant...the many times I was blessed with a willing ear, and shoulder to cry on...Today while pitying myself I really started to think about what Brother Laing said to me...that I need to get up and do what needs to be done... To stop thinking so negatively about my seemingly HUGE "stumbling blocks"...and start asking what I'm supposed to be learning from these experiences so that I can look at them as stepping stones to help me grow.
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